
l and publicity, his career went nowhere. What happened? 
My eyes followed him as he walked from one point of the school ground to the gate. I could only surmise then that he was looking for the person who would fetch him. My eyes followed him, intently, and I could feel my heart beating in a different drum. Faster. I knew he was handsome and that he stirred something inside me. I also knew that I wasn't supposed to think or feel that way. His name was Christian Ray. He was my first crush.

l and publicity, his career went nowhere. What happened? 

On the other hand, Pavel Novotny stands out from all other porn stars by giving the best facial expression when sucking and being sucked and fucking and being fucked on film. As for Chris Evans, I think I've said enough of his acting in the previous blog.
I wanted the first guy in Manscape to be very special, so after a careful deliberation, I decided to feature Mark Wahlberg (or the rapper-underwear model formerly known as Marky Mark). I have loved Mark since the first time I saw him on the cover of some teeny-bopper US Magazine. He was still Marky Mark then, a white rapper who delights the crowd by doing his musical numbers sans a shirt. I was about twelve or thirteen years old at that time and if I weren't still gay at that moment, it made me one. I was ambivalent to buy that magazine, but after two or three trips back to that store, I eventually bought the magazine. From then on, I was his and he was mine. I followed his career, from the rhythm of Good Vibrations to the glossies of his Calvin Klein pictorial, to his transformation to a bona fide movie star.
The last man in this first installment of Manscape is Chris Evans. Very few people are born to play comic book characters. Christopher Reeve (as Superman) and Hugh Jackman (as Logan) are two cases in point. Still, very, very few comic book heroes are created to be played by an actor on screen. Watch Fantastic Four and see that Human Torch was meant to be played by one actor and one actor only: Chris Evans. He was more than perfect for the role. He actually made the movie worth watching (and for me, worth watching four times). Remove Chris Evans or imagine some other actor play this character and the movie automatically becomes dull, dour and dreadful. Chris Evans brought humor, vigor and sexiness both to the role and the film.
I remember buying my first porn magazine. I was in 3rd or 4th year of high school, the guilty pleasure was Hustler and I considered it a birthday gift for myself. I bought it at A&A Magazine, which was located on the entrance of SM department store in SM City. A lot of my classmates got their similar reading materials from that store. Hustler was such a raunchy magazine and I thoroughly enjoyed it. It was plastered with photos of lustful blonde and brunette women, solo or coupled with men or another woman, caricatures and sex cartoons, informative articles and very suggestive fiction. The letters to the editor were also very stimulating as they consisted mostly of the weird or problematic sexual adventures of the Hustler readership.
Eventually, I realized that I enjoyed more looking at the form of the naked Archie than at the exposed bosom of Betty and the hairless pussy of Veronica. So from Hustler and International, I made the leap to Torso. But the first gay magazine that really captured me was a 1997 issue of All Man with Scott Randsome on the cover and centerfold. From then on, I was hooked.
One of the first things I do when I open my computer every morning is to click on the web page of Playgirl at www.playgirl.com and check out their daily fix.
The Daily Fix is Playgirl’s own version of other sites’ girl of the day, or the daily cock, or beaver of the hour ---depending on the site you visit and your sexual preference.
Starting each day by visiting this site gives me a tinge of anticipation, excitement and, of course, pleasure. How would seeing Chris Allen’s erection, or Breck Orshal’s equally turgid cock not give me a smile on my face when I open my computer? How about Jamie Gable's yummy physique? Or seeing 2002’s Man of the Year Matt Kenney fresh from the shower not make me equally wet?




TJ Austin is one of the sexiest young men I have ever seen. He reminds me of all the schoolmates I had in high school whom I violated, devoured, satisfied and salivated over in my private thoughts. 
He is the teammate I watched dressing and undressing after our basketball game. I would remember how white his brief was, all the while trying get a glimpse of how his cock makes a trace on his underwear.
He is the jock I cheered for during intramurals and varsity games. In my mind, I kept a record of his hardcourt moves. In my heart, I both hated and envied the many girls who flirted with him. I joined the school newspaper to be able to interview him, thus have a plausible disguise to talk to him in private.
He is also the friend on the other side of the swimming pool I observed as water dripped from his hair to his shoulders and raw stomach, as he leaves the pool. I remember, one time, I asked if he could carry me on his back around the pool. To my utter surprise, he agreed. I clung to him, feeling the strength of his shoulders, feeling the firmness and softness of his chest, and smelling the mixture of chlorine and his musk hair and skin.
He is also the reason why I brought extra paper, pen and art materials. I happily placed them in my bag the night before but counting on nothing in return but the expectation that he will be asking, me, for them during class. Nevertheless, he showed me his gratitude. Several times he carried my bag for me and walked me home. Their family driver fetched him late, around 6:00 p.m. This gave us ample time to trade stories while we walked to our nearby house. I tried to extend those moments, always coming up with silly questions and old stories that he has heard before, if only to see the whitenss of his teeth and the glimmer of his eyes a few seconds more.
He is the smile on my face whenever I am moved by nostalgia and reminisce my high school life. He made every day of school worthwhile, every assignment a cheerful task, each school activity an event to look forward to.
Last night, my friends and I watched Game 5 of the current PBA finals featuring Purefoods and Red Bull at the Araneta Coliseum. I purchased the tickets a week ago, Patron B. Purefoods is up 3-1 and I really believed that it would clinch the title that night.
- my first boyfriend. He retired from the league in 2004 and is now serving the team as its Team Manager. I instantly melted when I saw him on the team bench. At 39, not only is he the sexiest team manager in the league but he is also still the sexiest man alive for me. From my seat, I admired his still smooth face and bulbous butt. He hardly smiled the whole game but constantly cheered his team on.
Hollywood Hotties. Among male Hollywood, the distinction went to Wentworth Miller, Brandon Routh, Jake Gyllenhaal, Brad Pitt, Josh Holloway, Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom, Jamie Foxx, and Adrian Grenier. I totally agree with the inclusion of Jake G, Routh and Orlando. Whoever thought playing Superman, Johnny Depp's sidekick or a cowboy hand could be so sexy?
Got this photo (along with 40 others) of Julian Fantechi today from justusboys.com. Really made my day. Julian is in the midst of gay porn nowadays, gracing the August issues of both Playgirl and Men magazines. I understand he was earlier featured in the November 2005 issue of Playgirl. Can't find a copy of that issue anymore.
Julian will certainly warm my bed in the nights to come.